train

A faint smell of your perfume
Lingers, and only seconds
Have passed since you
Walked to the other side
Of this long stretch of road
And I am here standing still,
Mulling over my tragic
Past, and my dreary present,
Comparing both to and fro,
Reflecting on the mistake I made,
The misunderstandings I had,
Feeling foolish all the same and
Knowing I am mistaken yet again,
For leading myself to longing for more
An incessant childish longing for
This untouched but not
completely unfelt experience,
So I find myself eagerly
Waiting for my train to come
The train I missed on
So many occasions and the train
I should have chosen a long time ago
The train I set my eyes on
Some few decades before,
A train I knew I should have
Picked in the blink of an eye
And I know it could have been a journey
I would have thoroughly enjoyed and
Now I call it my one way train
And I know I call it rightly so
And I can see from a distance
A faint glimpse of this train now
And I know in my heart that
It will willingly take me back
To places I have never seen
Before, and I am guiltily aware
Of the feeling that it can make me
Love things I have never liked before
Where all the world’s burden
Won’t weigh an ounce anymore
Where everything I’ve seen
Won’t feel so huge anymore
But today I knew,
It was goodbye